the days ahead...

Been in a thoughtful mood lately...though that doesn't exclude momentary lapses into being a twit:P

For many around me...friends, family...even myself...we face decisions every day...sometimes big, sometimes small...but we must always choose. When I look back on my life...there are many moments I would like to have back...many things I wished I didn't say...times when I could have done more, and didn't...and times when I did too much, when I shouldn't. And for all those times, I sometimes wonder how my life...and the lives of those around me...how they would be different...better or worse.

I know...this is an exercise in futility...one cannot change the past...but sometimes...when I have a small moment to myself...I wonder...what if? What if I hadn't walked away from something or someone?...what if I had said what my heart felt when it was bursting?...what if I had hung onto something instead of let it go?...where would I be? Absolutely no idea...b/c all those choices I made (no matter how good or bad)...they lead me to here and now...

My favourite poem...hope it doesn't violate any copyrights:)

The Road Not Taken (Robert Frost)

TWO roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.